I went to visit Matt today with Dean.


Gosh, I love him.
what an amazing guy, just seeing how much he has grown and changed.
He has more then just my respect.. something deeper <3

Everyone

I was wandering around Word just picking up random things and staring at them until I'm conviced they're boring. Seeing as I had about 40 minutes to kill, I started listening to their audio cd's (brilliant idea!) and I clicked over to Reaben Morgan's "Everone" I am now the owner of a Christian worship cd and I am so excited!! total repeat all day!
He is an amazing song writer! it has been such a long time since I have felt so much depth and realisim in worship and this incredible connection!!

I don't just recommend this cd to you because of it's brilliance. I don't want to. But if you are searching for something more then just your boring planetshakers or hillsong (yes, aware it is hillsong, but it's not the same) then I really urge you to take a moment to sit down with this cd and close your eyes and open your heart to it. It's really just put my thoughts in a better light and my heart in a different place. His songs arn't your typical worship songs... well they are if you just listen, but if you find something in it to connect with.. it's not.

I'm listening to a sermon by Paul Washer. It's deffinatly got me thinking.. really intense thinking about being a Christian.


could you all check it out?
i'll let you know whats going on after it's finished.

eat your heart out

We will never be here again

There are moments in life... where you sit so still, and through the chaos.... of a thousand bodies moving around you, like you are lost in a sea. You turn your head... and there is that moment, where you swear everything is about to explode.

You hold your breath, just waiting for that next moment, the moment you can't even imagine how to prepare for. You close your eyes.. still feeling that increasing movement surrounding you, and you hear this still voice.

"Hold on"

The music blaring in your head phones starts building up, the drums, guitar and bass combine and become faster and faster.... the tension mounts and....

The peace follows.

You know when you were in primary/high school, you would be on your own doing a math equation suddenly you remember that the answers are in the back of the book! So you flip to the back, hurry through copying the answers... and your done! no blood shed!

Lifes not like that anymore. You can't keep just getting the answers without doing the equation first. There is a formula that creates the answer, if you just go and get the answer without the formula, yes you will be happy, but you will be even more lost then ever. It's not having the answers in life that makes you live the happy life.. It's the formula, the blood and tears you shed to get that happiness... that makes it real happiness!

ahh I have nothing more to add right now.

don't try and take shortcuts in life. thats not living it to the full!

Happy New Years everyone... is it really happy?
I spent New Years in the city with some friends I only just met a few months ago at church. Typical walking around and watching people lose themselves in alcohol and such things. The fireworks was really good, and Bomba played some sweet reggae tunes. But it wasn't until after the countdown that I realised... this year is like no other. They played a medly of various songs, over the loud speaker, that were hits during 2006. Like Evermore and Pink.. but also they played "Forever Young" by Youth Group. That was the song that was played at Sean's funeral. I can't even look at a Youth Group album without crying, let-alone listen to that song. I realised 2007 will not be like any year... because I don't have one of my best friends to share it with. So the new years celebration was no longer celebration another year, it is mourning the friends I tragically lost during 2006, the relationships that failed and the friends who I never see.

what will 2007 hold?