I start uni on the 26th.
I'm nervous and scared... but in good ways.
God use me.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Monday, February 12, 2007
I caught a glimpse of you today
I don't know what to say...
you're beautiful
so perfect
when you are with me... my worlds just fine.
you make me see that my life before you was just lonliness
I can't imagine my life without you by my side
the more that i see you the more that i realise your beautiful
I want my whole world to say "I love you Jesus" I want to chase Him. I want my life to follow Him forever. I want to show Him and let Him see every inch of me. I'm sick of empty words... I've been here before but it's time for me to change...
Anne Frank once said, how wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world... Doesn't that make you just stop and think for a moment?
Jesus
Jesus
Jesus....
Where did I go wrong? I'm tired of my useless excuses of "I'm not ready"... what are we not ready for? "I'M" since when was it about me?
God, this is my prayer.
Let your will be done.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Ok weird stuff is going on.
I ran into Esther today at work and we had a really REALLY good chat about life and the future. I'm usually so crap at small talk, but with Es, it's always jumping in the deep end.
I've been doing some praying about where my photography is going, and basically I came to a conclusion that I want to make a book. Weird thing is, before I could tell Es, she was already telling me to make a book.... creeepy
needs more prayer... but I know I'm going down the right path now.
I ran into Esther today at work and we had a really REALLY good chat about life and the future. I'm usually so crap at small talk, but with Es, it's always jumping in the deep end.
I've been doing some praying about where my photography is going, and basically I came to a conclusion that I want to make a book. Weird thing is, before I could tell Es, she was already telling me to make a book.... creeepy
needs more prayer... but I know I'm going down the right path now.
Monday, February 05, 2007
life goes on... and i can't seem to stop it
This time last year I had a friend die in a car accident and her boyfriend taking his own life. I keep thinking that nothing is as bad as that...
Last night at church I had the most heart breaking news that I have ever recieved.
My friend James was married around 2 months ago to the love of his life, Denneil.
woke up on Sunday morning to find his beautiful bride not breathing. They rushed her to the hospital but they couldn't revive her. He is only 22 year old and she is 20 years old.
My heart goes out to him and his friends and family, and hers.
I can't even imagine what he would be going through.
Rest In Peace Denneil....
I know you are in the most beautiful place.
I don't want to make this about me at all. But seeing as this is my only outlet, I have to let my thoughts out.
The craziest thing about this news, is that I was told just before the church service started. I spent the whole service fighting what I know, with what I feel.
My head repeats how she is in Heaven, she is more alive there then she ever was here.
My heart screams "why was she taken without any goodbyes or i love you's"
I've gone over and over every inch of this in my head, then something incredible happened.. I've realised what it means when I sing "He gives and takes away"
God loves us.
There was a man called Enoch, who lived well over 300 years... God loved him so much because Enoch had so much faith in Him, that God took him away because he didn't want Enoch to see death. Such a strange story, but reading this brought amazing comfort and peace.
I can't say this is the reason for why Denneil was taken, but it made me realise that God does not take people away to punish or in spite... he does it because He loves us.
He loves us.
do you realise how powerful his love is???
so powerful.. that it gives, and takes away.
Last night at church I had the most heart breaking news that I have ever recieved.
My friend James was married around 2 months ago to the love of his life, Denneil.
woke up on Sunday morning to find his beautiful bride not breathing. They rushed her to the hospital but they couldn't revive her. He is only 22 year old and she is 20 years old.
My heart goes out to him and his friends and family, and hers.
I can't even imagine what he would be going through.
Rest In Peace Denneil....
I know you are in the most beautiful place.
I don't want to make this about me at all. But seeing as this is my only outlet, I have to let my thoughts out.
The craziest thing about this news, is that I was told just before the church service started. I spent the whole service fighting what I know, with what I feel.
My head repeats how she is in Heaven, she is more alive there then she ever was here.
My heart screams "why was she taken without any goodbyes or i love you's"
I've gone over and over every inch of this in my head, then something incredible happened.. I've realised what it means when I sing "He gives and takes away"
God loves us.
There was a man called Enoch, who lived well over 300 years... God loved him so much because Enoch had so much faith in Him, that God took him away because he didn't want Enoch to see death. Such a strange story, but reading this brought amazing comfort and peace.
I can't say this is the reason for why Denneil was taken, but it made me realise that God does not take people away to punish or in spite... he does it because He loves us.
He loves us.
do you realise how powerful his love is???
so powerful.. that it gives, and takes away.
Friday, February 02, 2007
I'm balancing... falling and losing everything.
I’ve got to climb to the top,
Never stop till I reach it,
Tell I feel that I’m good
And that I’m in control Of life
and my thought
When I’m not I still preach it
Cuz they’re all gunna see if I start to fall
And lose control,
I’m losing control
Of this…
I’ve been balancing on suspended pianos
And trying to appear composed
It makes the loudest noise when they begin to crash
With eyes on me I force a laugh
You come to me,
And set me free
Across my arms across my chest
This is not a gift I can accept
But I appreciate the sentiment
I’ve worked too hard for righteousness
To just lay down while you hand me this
And put my faith in something you call grace
From you I’ve been lost inside a cave without a lantern
At every sound I start to run
Feel my way around the dark without a pattern
If I would wait you’d come
To rescue me and show the way
From you From you
(From you) trying to learn
What it falls beyond Beyond you Beyond you
(From you) trying to learn What is freely given
Every time that you Try to just redo
Just to give and take Is it in my face
Tell me that this blood Was (you)
him in vain
Never stop till I reach it,
Tell I feel that I’m good
And that I’m in control Of life
and my thought
When I’m not I still preach it
Cuz they’re all gunna see if I start to fall
And lose control,
I’m losing control
Of this…
I’ve been balancing on suspended pianos
And trying to appear composed
It makes the loudest noise when they begin to crash
With eyes on me I force a laugh
You come to me,
And set me free
Across my arms across my chest
This is not a gift I can accept
But I appreciate the sentiment
I’ve worked too hard for righteousness
To just lay down while you hand me this
And put my faith in something you call grace
From you I’ve been lost inside a cave without a lantern
At every sound I start to run
Feel my way around the dark without a pattern
If I would wait you’d come
To rescue me and show the way
From you From you
(From you) trying to learn
What it falls beyond Beyond you Beyond you
(From you) trying to learn What is freely given
Every time that you Try to just redo
Just to give and take Is it in my face
Tell me that this blood Was (you)
him in vain
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