life goes on... and i can't seem to stop it

This time last year I had a friend die in a car accident and her boyfriend taking his own life. I keep thinking that nothing is as bad as that...

Last night at church I had the most heart breaking news that I have ever recieved.
My friend James was married around 2 months ago to the love of his life, Denneil.




woke up on Sunday morning to find his beautiful bride not breathing. They rushed her to the hospital but they couldn't revive her. He is only 22 year old and she is 20 years old.

My heart goes out to him and his friends and family, and hers.
I can't even imagine what he would be going through.

Rest In Peace Denneil....
I know you are in the most beautiful place.





I don't want to make this about me at all. But seeing as this is my only outlet, I have to let my thoughts out.

The craziest thing about this news, is that I was told just before the church service started. I spent the whole service fighting what I know, with what I feel.
My head repeats how she is in Heaven, she is more alive there then she ever was here.
My heart screams "why was she taken without any goodbyes or i love you's"
I've gone over and over every inch of this in my head, then something incredible happened.. I've realised what it means when I sing "He gives and takes away"
God loves us.
There was a man called Enoch, who lived well over 300 years... God loved him so much because Enoch had so much faith in Him, that God took him away because he didn't want Enoch to see death. Such a strange story, but reading this brought amazing comfort and peace.
I can't say this is the reason for why Denneil was taken, but it made me realise that God does not take people away to punish or in spite... he does it because He loves us.
He loves us.
do you realise how powerful his love is???
so powerful.. that it gives, and takes away.